For anyone navigating uncertainty (so, everyone)
This week, the Knight of Swords and the Nine of Cups help us hold onto our hope.
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This week’s seed 🌱: The bravest thing you can do is hope for the best
The compost 🪱: The Knight of Swords + The Nine of Cups
The past couple of weeks have been… unrelenting chaos for me, to say the least. We moved into a new apartment (with a toddler so it’s like level 10 difficulty), my partner got laid off (which makes both of us within six months of each other), and my grandma has been in and out of the hospital (she is OK now, thank goddess.) Whew.
ONE of those things is enough to send me into a spiral, tbh. But getting hit with all three, among other things, back to back to back within a week or two? oh em eff gee.
^^That is why I haven’t been in your inbox in a couple weeks, but I hope you understand! I’m hesitant to say that the dust seems to be settling because who knows what will happen next, but at the very least we are settling into our new home, which feels very good.
Despite alllllll of this, I am holding onto this unshakable feeling that this tumultuous time is only temporary, and that everything is going to work out for us. Maybe it’s silly of me to latch on to this hope—or maybe it’s brave. Cue this week’s card combo.
The Knight of Swords comes across a little impatient and aggressive, and he is, but he is also fearless. He is brave. Whether or not his mission will be successful, whether or not he is actually a little scared, is irrelevant to the Knight of Swords. He charges forward regardless. He teaches us that we can’t let the chaos and overwhelm stop us from moving forward, fighting for what’s right, from living our lives. He tells us that even when we’ve been hit with one fuckin’ thing after another, life goes on. And we can meet it with bravery.
The Nine of Cups paired with our knight tells us that when you feel like you can’t keep going, when your tank is on E, you can always return to your hope for better. Your hope that better times are coming, that we can birth a better world. Because otherwise, what’s the point?
It’s easy to be cynical, to be negative. It’s fucking hard to hope for the best, to trudge on when it feels like you’re getting hit with one blow after another. This card combination reminds us that we will never regret holding onto our hope for better; that charging forth bravely despite our fears will always be the more emotionally fulfilling option, even if it doesn’t always feel that way at first.
So if you, like me, and many (most?) other humans right now, are facing scary, uncertain, and unreliable circumstances, you’re not alone. Find where your hope lives in your body and feed it, nourish it, and hold it tight when you feel afraid.
The water 💧: A digital altar for the week ahead
The glass 🪞: Outer wisdom
Read: How to cultivate hope, because sometimes it’s hard.
Listen: Life Goes On by BTS. Written during and about the pandemic, this song is a beautiful reminder that there are little things to be hopeful for, and that we’re all in this [crazy life adventure] together.
The sunshine ☀️: Some levity
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